insanity

im crying and im delusional
i feel like im going to scream but i know nothing good will come of that.
im looking at myself and i am covered in blood.
its all fucking over me.
i can smell it and everything.
but its not actually there.
i mean theres no reason it should be there
but i still have no clue why it is.
im not asleeping.
i feel vomit forming in the pit of my stomach.
Ive felt better.
just kill me now.
i am just a ghost.