Your words,a hammock by msninjavampire, literature
Literature
Your words,a hammock
No, you can't leave me alone
why do you do this to me
It's sweet that you love her
It's cute that you can
but you're still the only hand I'll grab
when i need to get up
Have I lost you
Do you still hold me high in your heart
do you still love me although we are always apart
I can't think straight
I never could
I do not use this brain I have as much as i should
drowning in a salty sea
one set up by only me
i lay fetal in a closet
for hours at a time
hoping you were there
to take me
I want nothing more
than a still beating heart
but I can't
and I won't
for these diseases are monsters
infections
theyve taken a toll
Not once not twice
Have I heard you say
I love you so much, don't ever go away
You're fluent in lies
But it's okay
As am I
There are secrets I hide
The blood on the counter- well that isn't mine
That gold gleaming dagger soon to be in your spine
This feeling of spite it's impossible to hide
I love you
I hate you
No one else should have this pleasure
Of betrayal
This immaculate revenge
Well let's just pretend
I'm practical and perfect most distinguished as they come
Not bleak and meek
Those petty women have nothing on me
For revenge is what I seek
You left me to die
Alone in the street
They told you
SHES GOT THE PL
The splice of a knife
the pull of a gun
bloody murders just so fun
as they squeal in pain
their soul splitting away
scarlet screams spilling unto me
im running around on a crimson crusade
ask me why
and ill smile real wide
bearing my fangs
dont u are think im sane
because all of you people YOURE HUMAN YOURE THE SAME
im doing this on purpose im letting you leave
im giggling on the surface
i love to see you blee
im climbing through your window with a crimson cape
im no superhero
im a person you should hate
I lay empty
lost inside me
fear ravages at thy soul
a lonesome facade
If i dare close my eyes
will i wake on the other side?
Can reality hear me
will they despise me
as much as i do?
fictional perfection
everyone
each being as flawless as the sun
But can they see
hollow little me?
why weren't you kinder?
why couldn't I cry in my own home?
I thought it was my sanction
why must you hit?
You gave me nightmares
and ruined sunny days
I've always wanted to leave
but you've made me too scared
and convinced me no one would want me
home always made me cry
mostly because you lay on the couch inside
I now cringe at the word
Dad.Daddy.Papa.Father.
what kind of a monster are you?
My memories won't go away.
They haunt me and follow me every fucking day.
WHY DID YOU MAKE ME THIS WAY?
I always feel so small and lame
I believe you, no one would want me.
I believe you, I am nothing
Youre so sick
You and your ga
I know I've never met you
but I feel like i am floating
when your name pops up
and I always forget im talking to a stranger
because all my thoughts are happy
after I thought I couldnt do that anymore
I spent all my days lonely
saddened by the sun
living every day
for that tiny rae of sunshine beeming through the fog
thank you for taking me away
even if its temporary
I can't be so sad
when I know theres you just a long while away
I'm living in your shadow
trying to get away
but you wont let me
you turned into me and as long as i am changing you are too
i dont want to be seen
who am i kidding?
I really do
But I can't be I cant be
because there's always you
so lithe tall and skinny
with the same personality
I am nothing but a chimpanzee
thats why im a shadow
always second best
only seen by the bearer
I try so hard to keep myself alive
I'm not even seen
I'm not even heard
my words are all but empty
Im living in your shadow
and when i close my eyes theres darkness
and when i open them its still there
it wont ever go away
Im living in your shadow